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...may you also have the blessings of a little dream come true...
I love the little people. My dad didn't approve of the word, "kids." If I said something about the kids at the day care center where the Service Club volunteered, he would correct me with a rejoinder including the word, "goats." Luckily, I think "children" is a beautiful word. And children are beautiful people. I was behind a child on the M15 bus going up Manhattan from the Staten Island ferry. This was one genius of a kid goat! He couldn't have been even three years old but he talked steadily to his nanny (I guess my dad would have made another goat reference on that word) about the excursions they had been on. He said, "Oh, that was when we went up to 77th Street for the frozen yogurt." At first, I thought he was referring solely to special occasions and consequently would know the addresses but, no. He was a running commentary on all sorts of streets. I noticed he did all the talking and never once asked, "Why?" "Why" is one of my favorite expressions from the Little People. They really want to get to the core of whatever they are investigating. I volunteered with children from the time I was in high school and the Why's tickled me better than a sunny day with an ice cream cone. Children can be very courageous, too. Like the two youngsters in DRUMMERS OF JERICHO. This is the story of a 14 year old Jewish girl, Pazit, in band at a Texas high school in a town which has no Jews."'People get mean when they're afraid they might be wrong. Or afraid they're gonna lose something. So they end up blaming you for what's their own fault.'" It would be hard for me to imagine what she goes through if I hadn't spent some of the Civil Rights years in Louisiana where I was told I might have to leave school if I didn't drop my "Outside Agitator" posture. The interview with the dean was on account of my having praised a photo of JFK shaking hands with Nat King Cole. Unreal, right? I throw my lot with the ones who speak out and I started young. I told my second grade teacher that I wouldn't write, "Examination" on the top of my test paper because I considered it too difficult for someone my age. I had been a child advocate before but this was the first time I had shown my true colors in public. My reaction to Paola in Donna Leon's book, FATAL REMEDIES, was, "Go Paola!" when her husband, the Commissario says, "'Why does everything have to be filled with such meaning....?'" I like characters like Jane Eyre and Billy Elliot who stand their ground, or in his case, soar in the air, with their convictions. Opinionated? Self-righteous? Judgmental? Take your pick. I stand accused but I don't mind. When I'm told that I should act my age, I have to ask, "Why? And what age are we talking about?" I'm very willing to be kid-age if I'm "The Emperor's New Clothes" kid-age. Often, the going get rough. Nobody cheers. Things get ugly. But there is something wonderfully freeing about trying to right wrongs. There is no failure grade for doing one's best. As my brother put it, "I can't do everything. I can do something."
Across the way, one flight down next to an airconditioning unit, a pigeon has made a nest. She has sat for several days now. She is so still I didn't notice her at first. Then a larger pigeon came close to my window observing her from the fire escape railing. I called to him, "Hi, Mr. Prettybird! Coo, coo, coo." Unafraid, he turned to examine me which he has done every time we meet. I named the family, The Prettybirds. Then, I added Lester and Lena. There is one egg in the nest as far as I can tell. I'm giving it the name Abe and Abbie if it turns out to be a double yoker. Why Abe? Perhaps it is because on Memorial Day, WQXR played a theme used by Ken Burns in his Civil War documentary. Oh how it haunts me! Naming has been a longtime hobby. I love the way Native Americans name themselves: Runs Fast as the Wind or Heals Like a Willow. Action names. And how descriptive the ancient Chinese were: August Heaven. Can't you smell the perfume of late summer flowers and hayricks? An ancestor of mine had several children of which my favorite was, "Garden Valley." An early memory is hearing a missionary reading a Bible story in which Adam's job was naming the animals in the Garden. I wanted that job! Very few friends have gone Unrenamed. There is something "chosen" about giving a friend a pet name. At the latest hourly quick-check, Abe and or Abbie have not arrived. I wait patiently to see the little eyes and for the day he will become Flies Like a Messenger or she will become Sings with the Sparrows.
My father had been assigned earlier in the year of 1945 to Jerusalem. Our family was staying temporarily at the American School of Oriental Research, overlooking the Mount of Olives. Dr. Nelson Glueck, an archaeologist and friend, came to the door one day and whispered to my mother, "The war is over." And then he left. She turned to me, her eyes wide, "The war is over!!" I knew what that meant as for the two years previous my dad had been assigned by the U.S. State Dept. to Angra do Heroismo, a city in the Azores where the Army and Navy soldiers made our house their, "Home away from home." I had overheard many a conversation about the "European Theater," the losses of people we had known and I had once slipped onto a plane full of wounded soldiers on their way back to the States. The horrors of war were branded in my mind and remain vivid all these decades later. Being only six, I didn't register the date or time but I remember clearly the sudden optimism, the feeling that now things would be "all better." I remember it was the month of May because that was my mother's birthday month and somehow the celebration became mixed with the personal joy we had. My mother often remarked that Rabbi Glueck's reaction to the news was vastly different from people dancing and shouting in the streets but I felt the same way--